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Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Sunday, November 16, 2008
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If to Fall is the fall
Then repentance is the winter
Damnation is the spring
And forgiveness the eternal summer night
With the love of your life
Chasing fireflies
My fall was the prophecy
Damnation my reality
With repentance my hope
But the need for personal redemption within me
Keeps my mind a state of anarchy
I tend to keep my life stressed
'Cause I can't rest
If it doesn't feel like someone has a gun to my head
See, after so many years of people wishing I would drop dead
I couldn't help but feel isolated, wishing my dreams hadn't fled
Tupac Poster by ~djp-2000
Then repentance is the winter
Damnation is the spring
And forgiveness the eternal summer night
With the love of your life
Chasing fireflies
My fall was the prophecy
Damnation my reality
With repentance my hope
But the need for personal redemption within me
Keeps my mind a state of anarchy
I tend to keep my life stressed
'Cause I can't rest
If it doesn't feel like someone has a gun to my head
See, after so many years of people wishing I would drop dead
I couldn't help but feel isolated, wishing my dreams hadn't fled
Tupac Poster by ~djp-2000
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Faded and R34N1M4T3D
I'd rather sin and carry that burden
Searchin' for repentance
Than live blind and end up in hell wondering
Just how I got this
My killing methods, visions of a mind burst
On the wall pattern spots
This is the sunshine inside the mind of a lost soul trapped in time
Living in between lives and my heart is blind
And love was just a dream that never came
Kept my head up through the rain but still my heart felt pain
With a broken heart lost in these thoughts she stopped them for a while once
And I preached love to the masses
But a couple of years later
And I'm still seeing
Tear drops and red wine glasses
Red Rose tea with a little milk and honey
Does little to soothe me
And as time passes,I've found her heart has turned me to stone
My body an empty home
And my soul gone to roam
I cry, I bleed
I drop a seed then I leave
'Cause I'm no one
That someone should be
Don't follow me
I go to church and I plead
I go home at night, fall to my knees
And weep,
I try to be so strong but I'm so weak
Dear HEAVENLY FATHER!...
Can I fall farther until I reach the depth that I need to
So I can breathe too, and heal true
Cause on the real I'm broken in
2, 4, 6, 8, 12 pieces
All in different directions and my thesis,
I've gotta go so many places to find myself
Tired of walkin' through this my heart a cell
My mind a landscape of living hell
I need a female in my life but not for love
Just someone to kick itWhen life get's a little rough
Hold me close and tell me it's alright
That I'm tough enough
And when I've been abandoned
By every other friend who's plans underhanded
To leave me stranded
Would she tell me to hold on, be strong, I can endure to the end
How can I tell this new love I'm not ready for love?
And still hers is the kind I've been dreaming of
Explore me, try to control me
Hold me and protect me when the world want's to whore me
Tell me I can take the attack
I don't need to clip up and clap back
Who can laugh with me
Cry with me
Look me in the eye and never lie to me
I cry, I bleed
I drop a seed then I leave
'Cause I'm no one
That someone should be
Don't follow me
I go to church and I plead
I go home at night, fall to my knees
And weep,
I try to be so strong but I'm so weak
Repentance can mean the difference
Between a heartbeat and defeat
And my mind state can be so sweet,
And so volitile that it escapes outside
It's like for the last five years I've been tryin to exorcise
The demons inside,
For the longest time I couldn't look people in the eyes
Surprised?
I thought up a love song and wrote it,
Seemingly prophetic for me but indeed God ignored it,
So I turned from the illogic of love and floored it
Always was the outcast, now a rider and a renegade
Lost in the whirlwind with a pin-pulled grenade
Lookin' to make a million, need to make a killin,
Trying to make my rhymes pay
It's just Me Against the World 365 all day
I identify with dead legends
'Cause I'm headed in the same direction
From start to finish
And my only prayer is that I didn't let my spirit diminish
I cry, I bleed
I drop a seed then I leave
'Cause I'm no one
That someone should be
Don't follow me
I go to church and I plead
I go home at night, fall to my knees
And weep,
I try to be so strong but I'm so weak
Searchin' for repentance
Than live blind and end up in hell wondering
Just how I got this
My killing methods, visions of a mind burst
On the wall pattern spots
This is the sunshine inside the mind of a lost soul trapped in time
Living in between lives and my heart is blind
And love was just a dream that never came
Kept my head up through the rain but still my heart felt pain
With a broken heart lost in these thoughts she stopped them for a while once
And I preached love to the masses
But a couple of years later
And I'm still seeing
Tear drops and red wine glasses
Red Rose tea with a little milk and honey
Does little to soothe me
And as time passes,I've found her heart has turned me to stone
My body an empty home
And my soul gone to roam
I cry, I bleed
I drop a seed then I leave
'Cause I'm no one
That someone should be
Don't follow me
I go to church and I plead
I go home at night, fall to my knees
And weep,
I try to be so strong but I'm so weak
Dear HEAVENLY FATHER!...
Can I fall farther until I reach the depth that I need to
So I can breathe too, and heal true
Cause on the real I'm broken in
2, 4, 6, 8, 12 pieces
All in different directions and my thesis,
I've gotta go so many places to find myself
Tired of walkin' through this my heart a cell
My mind a landscape of living hell
I need a female in my life but not for love
Just someone to kick itWhen life get's a little rough
Hold me close and tell me it's alright
That I'm tough enough
And when I've been abandoned
By every other friend who's plans underhanded
To leave me stranded
Would she tell me to hold on, be strong, I can endure to the end
How can I tell this new love I'm not ready for love?
And still hers is the kind I've been dreaming of
Explore me, try to control me
Hold me and protect me when the world want's to whore me
Tell me I can take the attack
I don't need to clip up and clap back
Who can laugh with me
Cry with me
Look me in the eye and never lie to me
I cry, I bleed
I drop a seed then I leave
'Cause I'm no one
That someone should be
Don't follow me
I go to church and I plead
I go home at night, fall to my knees
And weep,
I try to be so strong but I'm so weak
Repentance can mean the difference
Between a heartbeat and defeat
And my mind state can be so sweet,
And so volitile that it escapes outside
It's like for the last five years I've been tryin to exorcise
The demons inside,
For the longest time I couldn't look people in the eyes
Surprised?
I thought up a love song and wrote it,
Seemingly prophetic for me but indeed God ignored it,
So I turned from the illogic of love and floored it
Always was the outcast, now a rider and a renegade
Lost in the whirlwind with a pin-pulled grenade
Lookin' to make a million, need to make a killin,
Trying to make my rhymes pay
It's just Me Against the World 365 all day
I identify with dead legends
'Cause I'm headed in the same direction
From start to finish
And my only prayer is that I didn't let my spirit diminish
I cry, I bleed
I drop a seed then I leave
'Cause I'm no one
That someone should be
Don't follow me
I go to church and I plead
I go home at night, fall to my knees
And weep,
I try to be so strong but I'm so weak
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Sewwwwwwwwww...
This is an adendum (i don't care if i misspelled that or used it incorrectly...this is mah blogg, deal with it) to the last blog about a girl and crap.
Anyway, I didn't call. I txtd but I didnt' call. Turns out the number was to a hardline. Homie don't play that.
Anywoooo, it turned out that we ended up passing notes in class, which seemed odd since we were sitting right next to eachother. It was just like being back in high school. I'm assuming, since that's an aspect I've never experienced.
So, I've got oodles more space, so for your entertainment pleasure I give you:
FUNNY ANIMATED GiFs!
In closing:
Anyway, I didn't call. I txtd but I didnt' call. Turns out the number was to a hardline. Homie don't play that.
Anywoooo, it turned out that we ended up passing notes in class, which seemed odd since we were sitting right next to eachother. It was just like being back in high school. I'm assuming, since that's an aspect I've never experienced.
So, I've got oodles more space, so for your entertainment pleasure I give you:
FUNNY ANIMATED GiFs!
In closing:
Sunday, October 26, 2008
Call It(Whatever You Will)
Call it a fluke
Call it an accident
Call it a first kiss falling in love
And not knowing what to do next
"I Love You" is just a natural reflex
So you took off and flew away today
And Standing here alone, what could I say?
Here's to your life and something new
I hope he's good to you
I hope he makes things right
Because when I close my eyes...
Call it a broken heart
Call it every day falling apart
Call it no one feeling the same
As you did when you'd say my name
Call it me walking away in the end
Call this a life that needs to mend
Now in those mornings I still feel your touch
And when the wind blows I'm just an empty soul
Loking for this much
Lost in your rush
Just more lost trust
And sunrise just isn't the same
I'm tired of childrens' games
Call it an accident
Call it a first kiss falling in love
And not knowing what to do next
"I Love You" is just a natural reflex
So you took off and flew away today
And Standing here alone, what could I say?
Here's to your life and something new
I hope he's good to you
I hope he makes things right
Because when I close my eyes...
Call it a broken heart
Call it every day falling apart
Call it no one feeling the same
As you did when you'd say my name
Call it me walking away in the end
Call this a life that needs to mend
Now in those mornings I still feel your touch
And when the wind blows I'm just an empty soul
Loking for this much
Lost in your rush
Just more lost trust
And sunrise just isn't the same
I'm tired of childrens' games
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Today, Kids
Something odd happened in Dane's little universe.
I was sitting in my math class, doing some lessons on the computer, when a girl walks up to her friend sitting next to me and hands her a note, whispering into her ear. Out of the corner of my eye I glance at a note and through the slight blur all I can make out are scribbles and a line pointing in my direction. Moments later after the girl had gone away and sat back down her friend turns to me and says "so my friend thinks you're cute and wanted me to give you her number" and hands me the piece of paper.
How strange.
I was sitting in my math class, doing some lessons on the computer, when a girl walks up to her friend sitting next to me and hands her a note, whispering into her ear. Out of the corner of my eye I glance at a note and through the slight blur all I can make out are scribbles and a line pointing in my direction. Moments later after the girl had gone away and sat back down her friend turns to me and says "so my friend thinks you're cute and wanted me to give you her number" and hands me the piece of paper.
How strange.
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Sunday, October 19, 2008
Random Oddities...
That I guess aren't really that random...though answered in reverse order, so if one answer doens't make sense just wait, you might be rewarded.
1. What is your best friends name?
I refuse to have 'best friends'...at some point I was just like "what's the point"?
2. What color underwear/boxers wearing now?
Navy Blue
3. What are you listening to right now?
Chester Bennington and Julien K.
4. Whats your favorite number?
One Billion.
5. What was the last thing you ate?
a burger.
6. If you were a crayon what color would you be?
I'd be the color of the one that sits at the bottom of the box and gets smugged by all the other prettier colors, so much so that it doens't know what color it is. It might suck but if you think about it, they've been smugged by me as well so their little perfectness is now, thanks to me slightly ASKEW!!!!!!!
7. How is the weather right now?
Rainy
8. Who was the last person you talked 2 on the phone?
Jake Nutz
9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
their boo....oootuful personality..
10. Do you have a significant other?
please, that's kinda tacky.
11. Favorite TV show?
SCRUBS!!!!!
12. Siblings?
three half sisters, uno step bro, and hundred of n8v's.
13. Height?
5 7ish
14. Hair color?
Brown
15. Eye Color?
Brown
16. Do you wear contacts?
yup
17. Favorite Holiday?
The one where you get to celebrate, and you get to hang out with family members who make jokes behind your back, and are condescending to your face...MAN I LOVE THOSE!
18. Month?
That one.
19. Have you ever cried for no reason?
I don't cry. Which sucks 'cause my tears cure death.
20. What was the last movie you watched?
I honestly don't remember...DEATH RACE that's it.
21. Favorite Day of the Year?
The 5th.
22. Are you too shy to ask someone out?
Yes, I prefer to be approached.
23. Can you do a headstand (not using the wall)?
Sometimes
24. Hugs or Kisses?
Both.. at the same time.
25. Chocolate or Vanilla?
Vanilla.
26. Do you want your friends to respond to this?
I honestly don't care
27. Who is most likely to respond?
Pretty much no one, which is fine.
28. Who is least likely to respond?
Pretty much everyone, which is fine.
29. What books are you reading?
None.
30. Piercings?
Nada
31. Favorite movies?
OG Star Wars Trillogy
The Punisher
Mr. and Mrs. Smith
PREDATOR/PREDATOR 2
The LOTR Trillogy
Fight Club
Snatch
The Transporter/Transporter 2/I'm-Sure-I'll-Like-Transporter 3
Hot Fuzz
Casino Royal/ I-Know-I'll-Love-Quantum of Solace
The Breakfast Club
Batman/Batman Returns/Batman Forever/ Batman Begins/THE DARK KNIGHT!!!!!111
School of Rock
Tupac Resurrection
I Am Legend
The Chronicles of Riddick/Pitch Black
The Chronicles of Narnia
Tripple X
The Fast and the Furious
8 Mile (I know some of you refuse to believe that)
Tigerland
The Neverending Story
Meet Joe Black
Legends of the Fall
Troy
The Edge
The Holy Grail
The Sum of All Fears
The Matrix Trillogy
Shaun of the Dead
Jurassic Park
Underworld/Underworld Evolution
Dances With Wolves
Smoke Signals (a Rez Classic!)
32. Favorite football Team?
Seattle
33. what were u doing before this?
Conversating with madre
34. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn?
Kettle Corn...SUCK IT PARAMATERS!
37. Dogs or cats?
Dogs
38. Favorite flower?
Freesia
39. Been caught doing something you weren't supposed to do?
No, I'm talented...er...good..
40. Do you have a best friend of the opposite sex?
No. Let's keep it that way.
41. Have you ever loved someone?
...I don't understand the question?
42. Who would you like to see right now?
...le Sigh.
43. Are you still friends with people from kindergarten?
Honestly, I think some of the people from kindergarten who shared a mutual disdain are friends with me. I'm not sure how I feel about that.
44. Have you ever fired a gun?
Yus...it. was. awesome.
45. Do you like to travel by plane?
Yus
46. Right-handed or Left-handed?
LEFTAH!
47. How many pillows do you sleep with?
Duece
48. Are you missing someone?
Depends on the time of day...or the day for that matter.
49. Do you have a Tattoo?
No...
50. Anybody on myspace that you'd go on a date with?
Like, most of my top friends who aren't related to me or male...or both.
1. What is your best friends name?
I refuse to have 'best friends'...at some point I was just like "what's the point"?
2. What color underwear/boxers wearing now?
Navy Blue
3. What are you listening to right now?
Chester Bennington and Julien K.
4. Whats your favorite number?
One Billion.
5. What was the last thing you ate?
a burger.
6. If you were a crayon what color would you be?
I'd be the color of the one that sits at the bottom of the box and gets smugged by all the other prettier colors, so much so that it doens't know what color it is. It might suck but if you think about it, they've been smugged by me as well so their little perfectness is now, thanks to me slightly ASKEW!!!!!!!
7. How is the weather right now?
Rainy
8. Who was the last person you talked 2 on the phone?
Jake Nutz
9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
their boo....oootuful personality..
10. Do you have a significant other?
please, that's kinda tacky.
11. Favorite TV show?
SCRUBS!!!!!
12. Siblings?
three half sisters, uno step bro, and hundred of n8v's.
13. Height?
5 7ish
14. Hair color?
Brown
15. Eye Color?
Brown
16. Do you wear contacts?
yup
17. Favorite Holiday?
The one where you get to celebrate, and you get to hang out with family members who make jokes behind your back, and are condescending to your face...MAN I LOVE THOSE!
18. Month?
That one.
19. Have you ever cried for no reason?
I don't cry. Which sucks 'cause my tears cure death.
20. What was the last movie you watched?
I honestly don't remember...DEATH RACE that's it.
21. Favorite Day of the Year?
The 5th.
22. Are you too shy to ask someone out?
Yes, I prefer to be approached.
23. Can you do a headstand (not using the wall)?
Sometimes
24. Hugs or Kisses?
Both.. at the same time.
25. Chocolate or Vanilla?
Vanilla.
26. Do you want your friends to respond to this?
I honestly don't care
27. Who is most likely to respond?
Pretty much no one, which is fine.
28. Who is least likely to respond?
Pretty much everyone, which is fine.
29. What books are you reading?
None.
30. Piercings?
Nada
31. Favorite movies?
OG Star Wars Trillogy
The Punisher
Mr. and Mrs. Smith
PREDATOR/PREDATOR 2
The LOTR Trillogy
Fight Club
Snatch
The Transporter/Transporter 2/I'm-Sure-I'll-Like-Transporter 3
Hot Fuzz
Casino Royal/ I-Know-I'll-Love-Quantum of Solace
The Breakfast Club
Batman/Batman Returns/Batman Forever/ Batman Begins/THE DARK KNIGHT!!!!!111
School of Rock
Tupac Resurrection
I Am Legend
The Chronicles of Riddick/Pitch Black
The Chronicles of Narnia
Tripple X
The Fast and the Furious
8 Mile (I know some of you refuse to believe that)
Tigerland
The Neverending Story
Meet Joe Black
Legends of the Fall
Troy
The Edge
The Holy Grail
The Sum of All Fears
The Matrix Trillogy
Shaun of the Dead
Jurassic Park
Underworld/Underworld Evolution
Dances With Wolves
Smoke Signals (a Rez Classic!)
32. Favorite football Team?
Seattle
33. what were u doing before this?
Conversating with madre
34. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn?
Kettle Corn...SUCK IT PARAMATERS!
37. Dogs or cats?
Dogs
38. Favorite flower?
Freesia
39. Been caught doing something you weren't supposed to do?
No, I'm talented...er...good..
40. Do you have a best friend of the opposite sex?
No. Let's keep it that way.
41. Have you ever loved someone?
...I don't understand the question?
42. Who would you like to see right now?
...le Sigh.
43. Are you still friends with people from kindergarten?
Honestly, I think some of the people from kindergarten who shared a mutual disdain are friends with me. I'm not sure how I feel about that.
44. Have you ever fired a gun?
Yus...it. was. awesome.
45. Do you like to travel by plane?
Yus
46. Right-handed or Left-handed?
LEFTAH!
47. How many pillows do you sleep with?
Duece
48. Are you missing someone?
Depends on the time of day...or the day for that matter.
49. Do you have a Tattoo?
No...
50. Anybody on myspace that you'd go on a date with?
Like, most of my top friends who aren't related to me or male...or both.
Thursday, October 16, 2008
When it comes to relationships...
..."I'm like a dog chasing cars, I wouldn't know what to do if I caught one"
Relationships are so cute. Maybe it's the season, the impending winter that make people want to just hibernate with that special someone...you know, you've been quietly flirting for months, both afraid to speak to the other. And what little you do say comes in nervous spurts.
Then the snow starts to fall, and you go out for afternoon coffee, maybe a late lunch. Those late lunches turn into dinners, dinners turn into movies, at the theater, at his house or your house, then those movies turn into "it's late why don't you just stay over?"
Then aaaaaaalll that turns into this mushy nonsense. "Oh I'm counting down the microseconds until I see your face", "when I'm next to you all the world is right, not even al Queda could stop this love between you and I!"
Love...they think it's love? No. What it was, sexual attraction. You really wanted to forgo all the formalities of dating and jump straight into bed, and you knew he did too. But you're not a slut are you? No, at least you try to convince yourself of that right? Hehehehe, so you two go through the whole charade, and granted what may turn into serious feelings started with nothing more than a shallow need, a physical fix, like an addict. So when he leaves you because someone else caught his eye, or the relationship was getting deeper than what he wanted...who do you blame?
If what you really wanted was something deeper and more meaningful, don't you think you should've swallowed your pride, ignored the voices outside and inside and gone with the guy who was offering it all along, even if he doesn’t fit the cookie-cut mould?
But it's too late right? He's gone.
Congratulations:
In closing...
"Relationships don't work like they do on television and in the movies...will they won't they then they finally do and they're happy forever, give me a break. Nine outta ten of 'em end because they weren't right for eachother to begin with and half the ones that get married get divorced anyway, and I'm telling you right now through all this stuff I have not become a cynic, I haven't. Yes I do believe that love is mainly pushing chocolate covered candies and in some cultures...a chicken. You can call me a sucker I don't care, 'cause I do...believe in it. The bottom line, the couples who are truly right for eachother wade through the same crap as everybody else but the big difference is THEY DON'T LET IT TAKE 'EM DOWN. One of 'em will stand up and fight for that relationship every time and they're real lucky...
Relationships are so cute. Maybe it's the season, the impending winter that make people want to just hibernate with that special someone...you know, you've been quietly flirting for months, both afraid to speak to the other. And what little you do say comes in nervous spurts.
Then the snow starts to fall, and you go out for afternoon coffee, maybe a late lunch. Those late lunches turn into dinners, dinners turn into movies, at the theater, at his house or your house, then those movies turn into "it's late why don't you just stay over?"
Then aaaaaaalll that turns into this mushy nonsense. "Oh I'm counting down the microseconds until I see your face", "when I'm next to you all the world is right, not even al Queda could stop this love between you and I!"
Love...they think it's love? No. What it was, sexual attraction. You really wanted to forgo all the formalities of dating and jump straight into bed, and you knew he did too. But you're not a slut are you? No, at least you try to convince yourself of that right? Hehehehe, so you two go through the whole charade, and granted what may turn into serious feelings started with nothing more than a shallow need, a physical fix, like an addict. So when he leaves you because someone else caught his eye, or the relationship was getting deeper than what he wanted...who do you blame?
If what you really wanted was something deeper and more meaningful, don't you think you should've swallowed your pride, ignored the voices outside and inside and gone with the guy who was offering it all along, even if he doesn’t fit the cookie-cut mould?
But it's too late right? He's gone.
Congratulations:
In closing...
"Relationships don't work like they do on television and in the movies...will they won't they then they finally do and they're happy forever, give me a break. Nine outta ten of 'em end because they weren't right for eachother to begin with and half the ones that get married get divorced anyway, and I'm telling you right now through all this stuff I have not become a cynic, I haven't. Yes I do believe that love is mainly pushing chocolate covered candies and in some cultures...a chicken. You can call me a sucker I don't care, 'cause I do...believe in it. The bottom line, the couples who are truly right for eachother wade through the same crap as everybody else but the big difference is THEY DON'T LET IT TAKE 'EM DOWN. One of 'em will stand up and fight for that relationship every time and they're real lucky...
Friday, October 10, 2008
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
Feels Like The Taste of Fresca on Ice
All today, I couldn't find a single thing to do…
So I sat down, and I wrote a love song for you
Because the only thing that I can think
All this week
Is wondering when you'll be breathing this same air
And when I can see the sunshine brightening your hair
'Cause I can't wait for you between now and then
I can't wait to see if it's what I've been waiting for
Or if I'm just gonna be disappointed again
Either way, I like you my friend
The days still seem to take so long
Even though they're getting shorter
They feel to just go on and on
I'm still lingering in the moments
From the last time I touched her
And I didn't think…I could feel for another
'Cause I can't wait for you between now and then
I can't wait to see if it's what I've been waiting for
Or if I'll just be disappointed again
Either way, I like you my friend
Now I've been waiting, waiting forever it seems
For someone to come along and wake my wildest dreams
To take the memories of her and put them to sleep
I think I'm ready to let go
I'm just scared…
I'm just scared.
'Cause I can't wait for you between now and then
I can't wait to see if I'll be disappointed again
I wish you'd let me hold you my friend
Let me fall in love all over again...
So I sat down, and I wrote a love song for you
Because the only thing that I can think
All this week
Is wondering when you'll be breathing this same air
And when I can see the sunshine brightening your hair
'Cause I can't wait for you between now and then
I can't wait to see if it's what I've been waiting for
Or if I'm just gonna be disappointed again
Either way, I like you my friend
The days still seem to take so long
Even though they're getting shorter
They feel to just go on and on
I'm still lingering in the moments
From the last time I touched her
And I didn't think…I could feel for another
'Cause I can't wait for you between now and then
I can't wait to see if it's what I've been waiting for
Or if I'll just be disappointed again
Either way, I like you my friend
Now I've been waiting, waiting forever it seems
For someone to come along and wake my wildest dreams
To take the memories of her and put them to sleep
I think I'm ready to let go
I'm just scared…
I'm just scared.
'Cause I can't wait for you between now and then
I can't wait to see if I'll be disappointed again
I wish you'd let me hold you my friend
Let me fall in love all over again...
Stems from a Hist of Rock Assignment:
-My Rock History Bonus Disc: My History through Music-
1) Gollum’s Song - Howard Shore, Emiliana Torrini: This world is dark it is. Dark and cold, and we weeps doesn’t we precious, we weeps to be so alone. They made us like this, outcast us they did before we ever had a chance. Heartless and brutal they was, they kicks us, hits us, and why? We does nothing to them, nothing at first. Then we fights back, defends ourselves we does. And what does we get? They scolds us, punisheses us, makes us to be the villains. So now, now we weep, and when our tearses dry up we plot, schemeses, ‘murderer’ we whisper to ourselves. But still we longses for someone beautiful to come and sing to us, to loves us, that we can trust, and to takes us…
2) Anywhere - Evanescence: I want someone to find me, who will come and sift through the broken pieces I’ve swept to the side, re-build me better on the inside where it’s become so…
3) Hollow - Godsmack: Take me to a better place. If I could do it all one more time, I wouldn’t change a thing, despite the fact that…
4) What Hurts the Most - Rascal Flatts: was being so close, and having so much to say, and watching her walk away. Never knowing what could’ve been. And not saying ‘I love you’ is what I was trying to do. Now I’m…
5) Broken (Acoustic & w/ Amy Lee) - Seether: I wanted her to know, that I love the way she laughed, and for a moment she held me high and took my pain away…There was so much left to learn, she helped me forgive so there was no one left to fight…but she’s gone away, she doesn’t feel me anymore. It’s her fault, she showed me hope, change, and chance for a live worth living. Then she stole it away, stole herself away, my life threaded through my soul, and now all I feel is disconnected, sort of…
6) Cold (But I’m Still Here) - Evan’s Blue: She’s so endearing, she’s so beautiful. I don’t look like they do, and I don’t love like they do, and I don’t hate like they do. She broke me from the very first night, I’ll love her ‘til the day that I die. Though I doubt even that will stay this madness. And before I go to sleep, I close my eyes and I ask her “is somebody getting the…”
7) Best of You - Foo Fighters: It’s real, this hate I feel, gone is my life…my love. I’d die to heal.
8) The Kill - 30 Seconds to Mars: What if I wanted to fight, beg for the rest of my life? I tried to be someone else, but nothing seemed to change, I know now this is who I really am inside. Falling from myself, falling for another chance, I try to write her a love song, but with each word all I paint is…
9) Her Portrait in Black - Atreyu: I can feel her burning through my veins, she’s become an indelible part of my book, an important chapter and verse:
10) It’s Been Awhile - Staind: It’s been a while since I’ve seen the way the candles light her face. And it’s been a while but I can still remember just how her kiss tastes. I’m trying to forget, but this, this is…
11) A Different Kind of Pain - Cold: They come like flashbacks, thoughts of the life they must be sharing. I can feel it, every time he holds her, a chill coursing through my body like a blizzard in the dead of night…and I’m there, just…
12) Krwlng - Linkin Park: Discomfort endlessly has pulled itself upon me, it’s haunting how I can’t seem to find myself again. I hide myself away, letting this façade take over. They must have thought I was a clown, they way they always laughed at me. I got hateful, but now I’ve made my malice a weapon of my own. Now I see the lighter side, now I’m always smiling. But they look scared, I stop laughing and the world falls quiet, and I ask…
13) WHY SO SERIOUS?!?!?!? - Hans Zimmer and James Newton Howard: -End Transmission-
1) Gollum’s Song - Howard Shore, Emiliana Torrini: This world is dark it is. Dark and cold, and we weeps doesn’t we precious, we weeps to be so alone. They made us like this, outcast us they did before we ever had a chance. Heartless and brutal they was, they kicks us, hits us, and why? We does nothing to them, nothing at first. Then we fights back, defends ourselves we does. And what does we get? They scolds us, punisheses us, makes us to be the villains. So now, now we weep, and when our tearses dry up we plot, schemeses, ‘murderer’ we whisper to ourselves. But still we longses for someone beautiful to come and sing to us, to loves us, that we can trust, and to takes us…
2) Anywhere - Evanescence: I want someone to find me, who will come and sift through the broken pieces I’ve swept to the side, re-build me better on the inside where it’s become so…
3) Hollow - Godsmack: Take me to a better place. If I could do it all one more time, I wouldn’t change a thing, despite the fact that…
4) What Hurts the Most - Rascal Flatts: was being so close, and having so much to say, and watching her walk away. Never knowing what could’ve been. And not saying ‘I love you’ is what I was trying to do. Now I’m…
5) Broken (Acoustic & w/ Amy Lee) - Seether: I wanted her to know, that I love the way she laughed, and for a moment she held me high and took my pain away…There was so much left to learn, she helped me forgive so there was no one left to fight…but she’s gone away, she doesn’t feel me anymore. It’s her fault, she showed me hope, change, and chance for a live worth living. Then she stole it away, stole herself away, my life threaded through my soul, and now all I feel is disconnected, sort of…
6) Cold (But I’m Still Here) - Evan’s Blue: She’s so endearing, she’s so beautiful. I don’t look like they do, and I don’t love like they do, and I don’t hate like they do. She broke me from the very first night, I’ll love her ‘til the day that I die. Though I doubt even that will stay this madness. And before I go to sleep, I close my eyes and I ask her “is somebody getting the…”
7) Best of You - Foo Fighters: It’s real, this hate I feel, gone is my life…my love. I’d die to heal.
8) The Kill - 30 Seconds to Mars: What if I wanted to fight, beg for the rest of my life? I tried to be someone else, but nothing seemed to change, I know now this is who I really am inside. Falling from myself, falling for another chance, I try to write her a love song, but with each word all I paint is…
9) Her Portrait in Black - Atreyu: I can feel her burning through my veins, she’s become an indelible part of my book, an important chapter and verse:
10) It’s Been Awhile - Staind: It’s been a while since I’ve seen the way the candles light her face. And it’s been a while but I can still remember just how her kiss tastes. I’m trying to forget, but this, this is…
11) A Different Kind of Pain - Cold: They come like flashbacks, thoughts of the life they must be sharing. I can feel it, every time he holds her, a chill coursing through my body like a blizzard in the dead of night…and I’m there, just…
12) Krwlng - Linkin Park: Discomfort endlessly has pulled itself upon me, it’s haunting how I can’t seem to find myself again. I hide myself away, letting this façade take over. They must have thought I was a clown, they way they always laughed at me. I got hateful, but now I’ve made my malice a weapon of my own. Now I see the lighter side, now I’m always smiling. But they look scared, I stop laughing and the world falls quiet, and I ask…
13) WHY SO SERIOUS?!?!?!? - Hans Zimmer and James Newton Howard: -End Transmission-
Saturday, September 27, 2008
Weirdness and other stuff...
You Are 50% Weird |
 Normal enough to know that you're weird... But too damn weird to do anything about it! |
What's Sexy About Your Name |
 You are sexy because you are aggressive and focused. You love the chase. You are very passionate and intense. You tend to become obsessed with whoever you're interested in. You carry this intensity into the bedroom. You are a highly sexual person. In fact, you can be a bit too much for some people. You demand a lot, physically. You are very possessive of your partner. You definitely don't share. You can get jealous quite easily. You don't like anyone else taking up too much of your partner's time. |
Your Taste in Music: |
 Country: Highest Influence Nineties: Highest Influence Classic Rock: High Influence Hip Hop: High Influence Adult Alternative: Medium Influence |
What Your Taste in Music Says About You |
 Your musical tastes are upbeat and conventional. You are an easy going, optimistic person. Family and friends are very important to you. You enjoy caring for and helping other people. You thrive in a tranquil environment, and you do your best to keep things peaceful. You enjoy your life. You have your priorities straight. |
You Are Fairly Normal |
 You scored 45% normal on this quiz Like most people you are normal in some ways... But you aren't a completely normal person. You're a little weird too! Why You Are Normal: You'd rather have rats than cockroaches in your home You eat the frosting first You find the Macarena to be the more embarrassing dance If given the choice, you would choose to have more money over more time You think glasses can make someone more attractive Why You Aren't Normal: You prefer the moon to the sun You would rather be a movie star than an astronaut You are no longer with your first love You know a little about many subjects You prefer non fiction to fiction |
Your Kissing Grade: A+ |
 You are truly an amazing kisser. Your kisses are extraordinarily mind blowing. Whether you're naturally a good kisser or not, you've taken the time learn how to be the best kisser possible. Anyone would be lucky to get a kiss from you! |
There's a Chance You Could Be Violent |
 Overall, you're a pretty chill person - and you have a good handle on your emotions. Sometimes your anger gets the best of you, and end up regretting how you act. Try to curb your temper more often. It only has to get out of control once to do some damage. |
You Are 92% Burned Out |
 You are extremely burned out. You work too hard, and you're not getting the results you deserve. It's time for a life change, as soon as you can manage it. You're giving away most of your energy to something you don't even enjoy. |
In a Past Life... |
 You Were: An Insane Alchemist. Where You Lived: North Africa. How You Died: Decapitation. |
Your Japanese Name Is... |
 Akira Sato |
Erotic Thriller |
 You've made your own rules in life - and sometimes that catches up with you. Winding a web of deceit comes naturally, and no one really knows the true you. Your best movie matches: Swimming Pool, Unfaithful, The Crush |
Monday, September 22, 2008
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Saturday, September 13, 2008
Root Canal...
So, a couple of days ago I had a root canal. No big thing right. I went in, they numbed me up, started drilling and scraping, bing bang boom they're done...and I feel great right?
Not so fast.
Turns out the area my root used to be is reacting the the metal in the files they used.
"How is it reacting Dane?" you might ask. Well I'll tell you. It's somewhere between screaming child in wal*mart who follows you around stabbing you with a stick and...that's about it. Knowing that this should last about a week is all that keeps me from ripping out my tooth...man that would feel good. Where's my lortab? I feel like a junkie...
Thankfully I've got my dvdz of Scrubs to help me through.
I think if I had to choose between this and giving birth, I'd go with giving birth. I mean sure it might hurt worse than this, but I could've delivered my kid in the length of time I've been dealing with this. Plus, if I were in labour I could get an epideral...must...rip...out...TOOTH!
Yeah, kinda like that.
Not so fast.
Turns out the area my root used to be is reacting the the metal in the files they used.
"How is it reacting Dane?" you might ask. Well I'll tell you. It's somewhere between screaming child in wal*mart who follows you around stabbing you with a stick and...that's about it. Knowing that this should last about a week is all that keeps me from ripping out my tooth...man that would feel good. Where's my lortab? I feel like a junkie...
Thankfully I've got my dvdz of Scrubs to help me through.
I think if I had to choose between this and giving birth, I'd go with giving birth. I mean sure it might hurt worse than this, but I could've delivered my kid in the length of time I've been dealing with this. Plus, if I were in labour I could get an epideral...must...rip...out...TOOTH!
Yeah, kinda like that.
Le Sigh
So...right now mom's upstairs singing 'Nights Are Forever Without You' by England Dan and John Ford Coley...it's amusing.
So, I write songs...and I write 16's, sometimes I'm grown up, and sometimes I'm still playin' with them kids things. I shall use this blog as a spring-board for the songs and lyrics I write that are either positive, or not obscenely negative, startiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiing now:
I found myself this morning
Wrapped up in a cocoon
I looked up and around
And in a dream it was made of you
Tell me, what would you do for love?
Would you grit your teeth and try to speak from the heart?
And could you look me in the eyes and say I'm what you're thinking of
Could you let your actions reflect your feelings with me in the dark?
Now I'm a sucker for love, I've got to say
And in the dreams of a broken heart
You're never quite so far away
For a moment I felt decieved,
But the fact is I felt a failure to you more than me
Someday you'll remember
And someday you'll find me
But if you don't that's okay
I may not need your arms to bind me...tonight I wanna cry...
I know what will bring the tears about,
But I'm too scared to put that music on
I'm afraid of what might come out...
The songs that define you so perfectly
The words and the melody that bring you back to me...
It’s Been A While Right Here seemingly So Far Away
Now I have to say
Even just for today
You’re the reason whyI can’t listen to Maroon 5
King Harvest Dancing in the Moonlight
Gerry Rafferty while I’m walking down Baker Street
Walking away from West Side…’cause I see you there everywhere inside
You’re the reason I can’t listen to George Strait getting Carried Away
Maybe you’re making me a little Crazy
But I think I like my life that way
You keep me Broken, and I’m lonesome
And I haven’t felt right since you took yourself away
Every now and then I fall apart like Avril Lavigne
And I relate to the Foo Fighters in times like these
But I still see you today the same way I did yesterday
See, You’re Always a Woman to Me
Now, the Heaven’s open every time you smile
You make me feel at home
Keeping the world a ways away like a country mile
Don Henley helps me picturing Taking You Home
Ushering in the End of the Innocence
Remembering your hand against mine, fingertips touching fingertips
Then my chest tightens and I’m lost in a memory lingering in silence
Like Mike Shinoda I’m wondering Where’d You Go…I miss you so
Every door is closed
You’ve got your walls up, decisions made making obstacles
Yet I still believe in Miracles
You started to wash away everything that had Staind my life and my heart
And every dayYou took me So Far Away…
My Beautiful Love
These songs are difficult to listen to
‘Cause I’m The Man In Love With You
You’re the reason I wake up from a deep sleep in the middle of the night
I saw your face and felt high but something deep down didn’t sit right
On Sunday nights around midnight I think about you and I
And on Monday mornings around five I wish for you and I
I won’t let you be a part of life that was just passing by
In memories infinitely saying hello then goodbye
And you’re the reason I can eatI can barely sleep…
Yeah I’m a little Broken, just a little Broken
I’m feelin’ a little lonesome
And I’m hopin’You’ll be the reason I can smile again
You’ll be the reason that while I’m contained I can feel free and wild again
You’re the Whisper of a Thrill
The underlying intensity and chill in everything I feel...
So, I write songs...and I write 16's, sometimes I'm grown up, and sometimes I'm still playin' with them kids things. I shall use this blog as a spring-board for the songs and lyrics I write that are either positive, or not obscenely negative, startiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiing now:
I found myself this morning
Wrapped up in a cocoon
I looked up and around
And in a dream it was made of you
Tell me, what would you do for love?
Would you grit your teeth and try to speak from the heart?
And could you look me in the eyes and say I'm what you're thinking of
Could you let your actions reflect your feelings with me in the dark?
Now I'm a sucker for love, I've got to say
And in the dreams of a broken heart
You're never quite so far away
For a moment I felt decieved,
But the fact is I felt a failure to you more than me
Someday you'll remember
And someday you'll find me
But if you don't that's okay
I may not need your arms to bind me...tonight I wanna cry...
I know what will bring the tears about,
But I'm too scared to put that music on
I'm afraid of what might come out...
The songs that define you so perfectly
The words and the melody that bring you back to me...
It’s Been A While Right Here seemingly So Far Away
Now I have to say
Even just for today
You’re the reason whyI can’t listen to Maroon 5
King Harvest Dancing in the Moonlight
Gerry Rafferty while I’m walking down Baker Street
Walking away from West Side…’cause I see you there everywhere inside
You’re the reason I can’t listen to George Strait getting Carried Away
Maybe you’re making me a little Crazy
But I think I like my life that way
You keep me Broken, and I’m lonesome
And I haven’t felt right since you took yourself away
Every now and then I fall apart like Avril Lavigne
And I relate to the Foo Fighters in times like these
But I still see you today the same way I did yesterday
See, You’re Always a Woman to Me
Now, the Heaven’s open every time you smile
You make me feel at home
Keeping the world a ways away like a country mile
Don Henley helps me picturing Taking You Home
Ushering in the End of the Innocence
Remembering your hand against mine, fingertips touching fingertips
Then my chest tightens and I’m lost in a memory lingering in silence
Like Mike Shinoda I’m wondering Where’d You Go…I miss you so
Every door is closed
You’ve got your walls up, decisions made making obstacles
Yet I still believe in Miracles
You started to wash away everything that had Staind my life and my heart
And every dayYou took me So Far Away…
My Beautiful Love
These songs are difficult to listen to
‘Cause I’m The Man In Love With You
You’re the reason I wake up from a deep sleep in the middle of the night
I saw your face and felt high but something deep down didn’t sit right
On Sunday nights around midnight I think about you and I
And on Monday mornings around five I wish for you and I
I won’t let you be a part of life that was just passing by
In memories infinitely saying hello then goodbye
And you’re the reason I can eatI can barely sleep…
Yeah I’m a little Broken, just a little Broken
I’m feelin’ a little lonesome
And I’m hopin’You’ll be the reason I can smile again
You’ll be the reason that while I’m contained I can feel free and wild again
You’re the Whisper of a Thrill
The underlying intensity and chill in everything I feel...
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